i think i like you.

but i dont know what to do. i dont if there is something to do.


kawawa. oh well

i wish

i asked you why..

i'd say that i'd change. but that'd be pointless, because it wouldnt change anything for you.

why do boys seem so emotionless..? haha!

i sound ridiculous.

why is it

us girls still try even though we know nothing will change, making ourselves go through so much pain. we try our hardest and sacrifice so much for one person when that person wont even sacrifice just one minute or just one simple thing for you. we care for them so much and we're willing to do so much for them & the other person wont even care.. & what sucks is that sometimes we're not able to do anything about it. all we can do is get over it. So many girls complain about so many things in their relationship and make a fuss about the smallest things, when they should be thankful and realize that what they have in front of them is something not everyone has, not everyone experiences that giddy feeling that they get when they see their significant other, or the butterflies you get when your significant other does/says something cute. But then boys take advantage of their girl and sometimes dont realize how much we would do for them. what upsets me is that boys, know that us girls will fall for the stupidest things. we're so gullible when we're in like/love and dont see the stupid things that a guy could be doing. Some boys dont know how to show their feelings.. they treat all girls the same without knowing it, upsetting the girl. making us feel so unappreciated... or vice versa. not saying that all guys/girls are like this, but damn... alot of guys/girls need to open their eyes. hahaha

one regret i had in my past relationship. not that i wasn't thankful or didnt realize that my guy was amazing and one of a kind, it was that i made a fuss about the smallest things and acted like a baby, i was so childish.. so immature and ignorant. I guess thats what the past is for..

i seriously need a new man in my life -___-

forever alone (':

long time no blog..

so i was on tumblr & got bored & decided to visit my blogspot.... & WOWWWW i havent been on this in forever..

lets just say so much has changed since my last post... ill probably start posting blogs again, i kinda miss it.

update:

• january 2010- started out as a pretty good year. i guess i expected too much from it, didnt turn out how i wanted it to be, butt ive learned that expectations lead to disappointments... so lesson learned (:

had some good times &.. alot of bad.. lmao :D

• sadies 2010- my date was blind so i had to make the shirts (mostly) by myself and after i took care of him because everytime he opened his eyes itd hurt ALOT... poor baby.

• mr 2010- only because isiah was in it. lolol. turned out pretty goood thoo.

• prom 2010- i had fun, but then again i think i ruined everything for my date... im sorry.

it was still a memorable night for me.

• stag 2010- funfunfun, but had its downs because my own boyfriend didnt wanna dance with me... so i got followed by a creepy korean boy -__- haha

• june 2010- c/o 2010 graduated , and actually spent time with all of them before everyone went their seperate ways.

• summer 2010- spent with the one and only isiah de guzman & debut practices.. alot of drama because yah know... bitches aint shit but hoes and tricks. lol !

• christine casanass debut- pretty funnnn! but my relationship was going downnnn hill

• september 2010- school starts and doesnt turn out to be that bad. Ate tintin got married and spent a whole weekend with the de guzman family. pretty fun weekend btw. low key miss that part of september.

• october 2010- pretty good month.. my brother turned 18 and had a chill party , thanks to those who came btw.. it was a memorable night (: && homecomeing 2010 was pretty funnn <3

• november 2010- got my teeth pulled out and yeah... lolol

• december 2010- christmas was okay. im glad my family actually did something though.

i turned out to be single after a two year relationship by the end of the year. never felt the way i did & trust me it was a horrible feeling, getting your heart torn out -___-

i look back and realize how childish and ignorant i was too him. im sorry. hahaha.

2010 helped me grow up, it didnt have much of its GOOOOD times, but hey, i picked up alot from that year. The break up helped me grow up and made me realize that anything can happen, any time, any day, no matter how good you thought things were going. one minute, with just few words, can mean so much & change you & turn everything upside down. its amazing how it took 2 years to build up everything, & then one morning, in just a few minutes.. those 2 years were just thrown aside. i don't hate him for putting me through all that pain though, he actually taught me alot & made me a stronger person. BUTT lets just say now? im traumitized. hahaa

thats it for now kbye.

still

trying to get used to tumblr.

tumblr is so complicated at first -_- hhaha hopefully i get used to it.

anyways, i slept all freakiin day. haha havent done that in awhile(=

looks like

its time to say byee to blogger and ello tumblr..


ill sign in every once in awhile (=

tempted.

i was tempted to make a tumblr since mark kept talking about it all freakiingg night.... SOO i made one hahaha... imma switch to tumblr soon, because its cooler lol

anyways,
bubstuh is going to vegas tomorrow, so i tried to spend alot of time with him todayyy. by the way, thanks for today(=

and both my parents are gone ):

dad- p.i for TWO WEEKS D=
mom- vegas for the weekend..


depressing but happy at the same time. tomorrow we have auditions for SI and i'm super duper nervous since i wasnt able to practice as much =/ wish me luckkk!!!